Spontaneous

And So I was dumped. It was a bitter moment, then came the Denial-Anger-Bargain-Depression-Acceptance—the reparative grief process.

 I bet you thought  it took me some courage to put in  to writing the previous post.  Well, hell yeah, it did.  A while ago, I had a read on it and I can’t help but smile and wander off of the awful dread the moment that was.  In an unbias fashion, I’ve read my thoughts and found it quite a despair.  I’ve read yours, and it was a kind lend a hand.  I’m smiling because I am thinking that this one would be an opposite complement of that Introspection shitty;  a comeback from a retreat, resurrection after death, sunshine after the rain-whatever.

Hours ago, I had a great time with my bestfriend. And I guess, I really missed those times when everything was just so naive. Psycho babbling, bag gliding on heck of a dirty hall, make me cry race, unconscious mutual violence, who’s the richest tales, list the treats you had me (somewhat boring because it doesn’t always happen)  and the recent infamous  bookmark (was that really a bookmark?) for a ransom- the basic random proponents of a lasting friendship, I believe.  It makes me sad though that those days are to be counted. It also made me loosely remember a word we discovered on a lame Literature class, which consequently  became a personal favorite.

Vicissitude. And if I could describe life’s circumstances in one word,this would be it. I am fine now and never been this determined and eager. Introspection and everything about it will help me kick up a notch, a way higher.

 

After all, life is indeed spontaneous.

 

Time stops at some point, and when it starts again, it moves fast. (Big Fish,2003)

 

LOL. Imagine this as a footnote: Vicissitude- n.an irregular, unexpected, surprising change;  successive, alternating, or changing phases or conditions, as of life or fortune; ups and downs

 

~ by jantri on April 4, 2009.